Creative play

it took me a long while to just play

 play for the shear joy of it

for the longest time i felt i had to be productive

always
every time.

 i think this is a woman's thing.

do you?

but a few years ago with extended time out of work due to an illness
i had a miraculous opportunity to play. 
play was something that i could do. 
with limited energy, play was what i did.

i found it both liberating and exciting.

here is a piece that came from a more recent playful time with my sewing machine

starting with scraps of silk and wool

i sewed and cut and turned and sewed

and cut and turned and sewed the strips again and again

until i had this mosaic of tiny spots of color and texture

 i used metallic and other decorative threads to embellish over top of the mosaic

once i might have asked:

'but what is it?'

or

'what will it be or become?'

now i enjoy this simple act of doing
and i allow it to just 'be'